My bedtime has come and gone.
Way gone.
But there is no sleep to be had.
Not for me anyway.
Not now.
Three of my babies are gone.
They are safe and warm – this I know. They’re with Dad. (Theirs, not mine).
And though my head knows it, the knowledge does nothing for the knot in my stomach. The onslaught of what-ifs. The images that keep me from sleep.
I hate to be a downer.
But tonight this morning I’m down.
Sigh.
On a completely different note, there is something to be thankful for though.
That is, that we opted to rent Julie and Julia tonight as opposed to Paranormal Activity.
Both were available in the Redbox.
Considering the fact, though, that I’m sitting here alone in the dark after midnight I think we made the right decision.
Had we gone the other way I’d be pretty freaked out right about now. I just know it.
Freaked out and feeling sorry-for-myself-gloomy.
Instead I’m just the latter.
PS. We turned Julie and Julia off halfway through. Not worth even the dollar in my not-so-humble opinion.
It was a real yawn-fest.
Come to think of it…maybe I’ll turn it back on now.
Bring on the yawning.
G’night.
Allison @ Slice of Heaven December 30, 2009 7:28 am
Hang in there! {{{hugs}}} They’ll be coming home soon! Happy New Year!
me December 30, 2009 8:09 am
Only a few more days honey, and everything will be back to normal…luv u
Our Crazy Boys December 30, 2009 8:58 am
Just a few more days and they’ll be home.
I thought I was the only one who didn’t like that movie… I’m glad you thought it was boring, too.
melanie December 30, 2009 9:11 am
Sorry your kiddos are gone!
I LOVED that movie though. Maybe you should give it another chance. At the same time, I have heard some TERRIBLE things about Julie Powell that have since tainted my view of her.
Christina December 30, 2009 9:34 am
((((HUGS))))
kristen@nst December 30, 2009 12:51 pm
Huh. I always heard good things about that movie. Well.
I’m sorry you’re missing your girls. I guess that’s to be expected. But that doesn’t make it feel better. They’ll be home soon.
I have these types of nights, too. The most ridiculous what-ifs that all of a sudden seem to be a real possibility. And nothing much helps that except possibly a glass of wine and definitely falling asleep. Hang in there!
Jenny N. December 30, 2009 12:53 pm
I’m SHOCKED! We watched Julie and Julia the other night and I LOVED it! But I’m also head over heels for cooking so that maybe had a part in it.
Shelle-BlokThoughts December 30, 2009 3:50 pm
I haven’t seen either movie, not sure if I ever will. But I’m sorry you were gloomy… I hate nights like that :(
Susanne December 30, 2009 10:55 pm
We loved Julie and Julia! Our 14 year old son is an aspiring chef whose heroes are Julia Child and Alton Brown. I had just finished reading Julia’s book, My Life In France, and it was fun to watch how closely the movie followed the book. But I can see how it’s not everybody’s cup of tea.
Heather December 30, 2009 11:17 pm
You know, if ever you can’t sleep, I know a certain late night gal who would love a phone call from you. Ahem.
Grams December 31, 2009 5:08 pm
I saw Julie and Julia with my somewhat older friends in Idaho and we enjoyed the movie. Maybe it comes with age, we slow down a lot. Love you my dear,